MORE THAN HALF....

 MORE THAN HALF.....

I WITNESS THE RISE~FALL & THE DEATH OF A  REAL LIFE DYNASTY, 
RECITED A SEDUCTIVE SOLILOQUY AS I BATHED IN A RAVINE ONLY TO BE DENIED CLEMENCY OR AMNESTY.... 
TRANSLATED LYRICAL ENERGY INTO A MANIFESTATION OF PURE PHYSICAL PLEASURE, 
KISSED A POISONOUS MUSHROOM TOP TIL IT'S THOUGHTS EXPLODED FROM THE HEAT OF EXOTIC PRESSURE...
GOT ME STILL CHASING PAVEMENTS WHERE FOOTPRINT  DOESN'T LEAVE ANY CLUES,
BUT I BUILD SAND CASTLES IN THE SAND CAUSE I WANTED TO BELIEVE IN FAIRY TALES TOO...
MENTAL SHIT AROUSED MY HIGH POWERED SUPREME INTELLECT,
MADE HIS INTELLIGENCE SEEM LIKE IT WAS SUPER SEX...
HIS TWIN TOWERS AGAINST MY TWIN PEAKS,
MADE A MOVEMENT OUTTA'  MY PERSISTENCE WHEN WE SOAKED UP SATIN SHEETS...
GIVE ME MY NICKEL BACK CAUSE I'M ONLY GUILTY OF PLAYING "PIANO'S IN THE DARK",
SEARCHING FOR BRAILLE KEYZ THAT ALICIA'S LOCKET COULDN'T CONTAIN IT'S CONTENTS THAT'S HELD IN MY HEART...
THE COLDEST WINTER APPROACHING LIKE ICE GLAZIERS FREEZING THE ATLANTIC SEA, DRIFTING SO FAR AHEAD THAT YOU CAN ONLY SEE HALF OF ME...

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THE OTHER SIDE....

THEY SAY IT'S A SIN TO WASTE TIME THAT CAN'T BE FILTERED,
BUT I ADD EXTRA MINUTES LIKE BULLETS CRAFTED WITH THE FINEST SILVER...
ADORNED IN SILK ROBES WHILE I OFTEN KNEEL TO PRAY,
DEAR GOD WALK AMONGST MY SHADOW CAUSE THERE ARE WOLVES THAT METHODICALLY PREY....
BUT THOSE DARKEST HOURS HAVE BEEN MY GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENTS,
STOPPING FOR ALL FORKS IN THE ROAD TO REALIZE I AM MY BIGGEST COMPLIMENT....
HIGH OFF THIS OCTANE I CALL LIFE,
IF I HAVEN'T LOST EVERYTHING ONCE BEFORE THEN MAYBE I WOULD SURELY HAVE DIED...
CAUSE MY BLOOD POUR LIKE SAND FOUND IN A HOUR GLASS,
I EMBRACE MY FUTURE EXCEPT MY PRESENT BUT CAN'T ESCAPE MY PAST...
RAINBOW WISHES FOUND ONLY AFTER IT RAINS,
I'M STILL SITTING ON MY POT OF GOLD WAITING FOR A KING TO KNOW HOW TO HANDLE MY REIN...
QUEENS AND HENCHMEN WIN WARS FOUGHT WITH ONLY ONE GOAL FOR THE FINISH,
BRING HOME THAT WHITE FLAG SO A KING WILL KNOW WHO RULES THE HEART WHEN ALL THE FIGHTING IS FINISHED...
NO JUDGMENT FOR ME CAUSE MY OUTCOME IS WRITTEN ON SACRED SCROLLS,
I KNEW HOW THIS STORY ENDED LONG BEFORE IT EVER WAS TOLD...


((( I BEEN HERE BEFORE )))

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SOULLESS....

LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS GOT ME PONDERING & OFTEN WONDERING, 
I JUST DROVE ABOUT A 100 MILES BUT TIME JUST KEPT ON WANDERING.... 
NOW I CAN'T SLEEP CAUSE I'M AFRAID OF THOSE DREAMS THAT WAIT FOR ME INSIDE THE DISTANCE  OF MY COMFORT ZONE,  
INCONCEIVABLE BUT NEVER THE LESS I'M STILL OUT HERE ON MY OWN.... 
LOSING EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED TO HAVE,
I HEAR MY CIRCLE SAYIN' I TOLD YOU SO WITH THAT STRANGE SARCASTIC LAUGH...
WRONG SIDE OF THE BED AS I KEEP GRAVITATING TOWARDS THE MIDDLE,
WISHING I WAS SLEEPING IN HIS ARMS AS I KEEP REACHING BUT ONLY FINDING THE COMFORTS OF OLD BODY PILLOWS...
PAUSING FOR A MINUTE CAUSE IT'S ACTUALLY GETTING HARDER TO BREATHE,
REAL TEARS START TO FALL CAUSE I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY BUT NOT AT THE COST OF FORGETTING ABOUT  ME...
DEEPER THAN THE OCEAN AT THE DEPTHS OF THE MARIANA  TRENCH,
KNOWING I GOTTA DO SOMETHING BUT DON'T KNOW WHAT HOW OR EVEN WHICH....
ECHO'S STIR BUT I'M TOO FRANTIC TO EVER LOOK AT THE MIRROR,
BROKEN REFLECTION OF YESTERDAY'S MEMORY IS ONLY GETTING MIRRORED....


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LOVE~LIFE~PAIN

PENSETTERS PRODUCTION: (SHANTELL COOPER)(CHRIS FERGUSON)


SHANTELL:

POST PARDUM DEPRESSION~ GOT ME OBSESSING~I GAVE BIRTH TO IMMORTAL MEMORIES JUST BECAUSE I LIKE THE WAY THAT HE WAS SEXING.... 
TEARS IN REAL TIME  CAUSED BY SOMEONE I LOVE,
NICE GUY WITH  A PASSION DAMN HE WAS MY DRUG....
ONLY TO BE CONFESSING MY PAIN TO MY BEST FRIEND,
ASKING HIM WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME AND WHY HE THOUGHT HE WANTED IT ALL TO JUST END...
SHARING SECRETS WHEN EVERYTHING WAS GOING TOPSY TURVY,
HE REASSURED ME I WAS GOOD AND LISTENED PATIENTLY AND I KNOW THAT HE HEARD ME... FRIENDS LIKE THAT ARE LIKE DIAMONDS IN A ABANDON COAL MINE FIELD,
HARD TO ALWAYS COME BY BUT EVEN HARDER TO FUKIN KILL...
CAN'T STRESS ENOUGH WHAT LOYALTY AND HONESTY MEANS BETWEEN TWO GREAT PEOPLE, THIS IS MUTUAL RESPECT AT IT'S BEST BUT ALSO EXPLAIN HOW FRIENDS RELATE ON A EQUAL...  ....


CHRIS:

THE RELATE IS REAL. I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU PUT YOUR TOTAL ON A SUBTRACTION, THAT WAS AN ADDITION TO YOUR GREATEST DISTRACTIONS,..ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT YOU WERE DIVIDED BY TRUE LIES.
A FRIEND THAT I THOUGHT WAS REAL, WAS REVEALED BY SEQUELS OF MEANINGLESS DREAMS..TOOK ME A WHILE TO PIECE HER ALL TOGETHER, I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION OF WHAT SHE REALLY MEANS.
I TRIED TO DEFEND HER THRU FRIENDS THAT DIDN'T WANT TO SEE MY HAPPY EVOLVE..ALL ALONG SHE WAS A COLD CASE WENT WRONG,..I NEEDED TO SEE WITHIN ME TO SOLVE.
I HAD TO CUT HER OFF TO FIND MY WAY,..HER WAY FOUND ME ONCE SHE WOKE UP FROM MY ASTRAY..
-C.E.F.-MADDE-


SHANTELL:

YOU CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE HOW I FELT FROM THE BACK DRAFT OF ALL THAT AFTERMATH,
THE MAN I LOVE WATCHING ME SELF DESTRUCT WHEN I SHOULDA BEEN HIS BOTTOM HALF... BROKEN DREAMS THAT CAME WITH A PRICE BUT STILL I DIDN'T REGRET,
I ASTRO PROJECTED MYSELF TO HIS SUBCONSCIOUS EVEN AS HE SLEPT... 
ONLY TO FIND OUT I WAS ALL ALONE IN MY ON GOING QUEST,
YEARS OF BEING A ADVOCATE TO HIM  HE STILL DIDN'T THINK IT WAS MY BEST...
PROBLEM SOLVING SIMPLE MATTERS SO THE OTHER ONE COULD EVOLVE,
HOPING TO WATCH THE ONE I LOVE  BE HAPPY AND FINDING THE GREATEST LOVE OF THEM ALL...
BUT THAT LOVE WASN'T MINE IT WAS MEANT FOR  BYSTANDERS AND OTHER CHICKS ON THE SIDE,
WHILE I'M SITTING HERE WRITING THIS FUKIN'  EXCERPT FEELING LIKE I JUST LITERALLY DIED....


CHRIS:

THAT ONE "HER" IN THE WORLD DISPLAYING MULTIPLE FICTITIOUS TRUTHS THAT CONTINUED TO CURL LIKE THE WICKED WITCH OF THE WEST BOOTS. HER INNOCENCE COULDN'T EVEN BENEFIT FROM THE DOUBTS I HAD..FRESH APPLES WANTED MY REBOUND, BUT DISTRUST TURNED ALL DEM SHITS TO THE BAD. REALLY CAN'T PLACE ALL THE BLAME ON HER SHAME..MY OFFER WASN'T ENOUGH, SO I HAD TO CHARGE MY FLAWS TO CREDITS' GAME..MINUS THE PAIN, THE SHIT WAS WORTH A LESSON GAINED..TRUTH BE TOLD, BY WAY OF HER YESTERDAY..TODAY I'M A CHANGED MAN..
-C.E.F.-MADDE-

MY POETRY SPEAKS....

THESE LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS GOT MY HEAD ALL CRAMPED UP,
AND EVERY TIME I IMAGINE HIM FUCKIN ME MY BODY GETS COMPLETELY AMPED UP...
SLOW MOTION CAUSE I HEAR A MELODY I JUST CAN'T FORGET,
PAPI PLACED ME ON HIS PIANO STOOL AND THAT'S  EXACTLY WHERE I REALLY WANT TO  SIT...
NON NEGOTIABLE THE TRUTH IS MY WITNESS,
IF MURDER HAD A ALIBI I WOULDN'T NEED NO FUKIN FORGIVENESS...
JUST ANOTHER DREAM WHERE I'M BREATHING THE SAME AIR YOU SPITTING OUT,
JUST ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY WHERE YOU GOT ME GASPING & TAPPING OUT....
TRACING THE CURVES OF MY BODY TRYING TO REMEMBER HOW GOOD IT FELT JUST TO BE LAYING IN HIS ARMS,
TASTING A VIVID MEMORY FROM ME PAPI'S LUCKY CHARMS...
SWEETER THAN A HERSHEY'S CHOCOLATE COATED KISS,
DADDY MADE MY TONSILS SING WITH STROKES DEEPER THAN A ABYSS....
WAVE AFTER WAVE THE ORGASMS JUST KEPT CUMMIN',
PINNED UNDER HIS STRENGTH PAPI HAD ME WHERE I WASN'T RUNNIN'....
AND WHO WOULD WANT TO WHEN HE'S THE BEST I EVA HAD,
THE OTHER BROTHA THOUGHT HE HAD A SIGNATURE NOW HE'S JUST FUKIN MAD...
MY BODY SITS IS IN SOLITARY CONFINEMENT CAUSE ISOLATION IS MY ONLY GOD GIVEN CHOICE,
HOW COULD I BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE WHEN I'M ADDICTED TO HIS METHODS AS WELL AS HIS VOICE...

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