LOVE~LIFE~PAIN

PENSETTERS PRODUCTION: (SHANTELL COOPER)(CHRIS FERGUSON)


SHANTELL:

POST PARDUM DEPRESSION~ GOT ME OBSESSING~I GAVE BIRTH TO IMMORTAL MEMORIES JUST BECAUSE I LIKE THE WAY THAT HE WAS SEXING.... 
TEARS IN REAL TIME  CAUSED BY SOMEONE I LOVE,
NICE GUY WITH  A PASSION DAMN HE WAS MY DRUG....
ONLY TO BE CONFESSING MY PAIN TO MY BEST FRIEND,
ASKING HIM WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME AND WHY HE THOUGHT HE WANTED IT ALL TO JUST END...
SHARING SECRETS WHEN EVERYTHING WAS GOING TOPSY TURVY,
HE REASSURED ME I WAS GOOD AND LISTENED PATIENTLY AND I KNOW THAT HE HEARD ME... FRIENDS LIKE THAT ARE LIKE DIAMONDS IN A ABANDON COAL MINE FIELD,
HARD TO ALWAYS COME BY BUT EVEN HARDER TO FUKIN KILL...
CAN'T STRESS ENOUGH WHAT LOYALTY AND HONESTY MEANS BETWEEN TWO GREAT PEOPLE, THIS IS MUTUAL RESPECT AT IT'S BEST BUT ALSO EXPLAIN HOW FRIENDS RELATE ON A EQUAL...  ....


CHRIS:

THE RELATE IS REAL. I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU PUT YOUR TOTAL ON A SUBTRACTION, THAT WAS AN ADDITION TO YOUR GREATEST DISTRACTIONS,..ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT YOU WERE DIVIDED BY TRUE LIES.
A FRIEND THAT I THOUGHT WAS REAL, WAS REVEALED BY SEQUELS OF MEANINGLESS DREAMS..TOOK ME A WHILE TO PIECE HER ALL TOGETHER, I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION OF WHAT SHE REALLY MEANS.
I TRIED TO DEFEND HER THRU FRIENDS THAT DIDN'T WANT TO SEE MY HAPPY EVOLVE..ALL ALONG SHE WAS A COLD CASE WENT WRONG,..I NEEDED TO SEE WITHIN ME TO SOLVE.
I HAD TO CUT HER OFF TO FIND MY WAY,..HER WAY FOUND ME ONCE SHE WOKE UP FROM MY ASTRAY..
-C.E.F.-MADDE-


SHANTELL:

YOU CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE HOW I FELT FROM THE BACK DRAFT OF ALL THAT AFTERMATH,
THE MAN I LOVE WATCHING ME SELF DESTRUCT WHEN I SHOULDA BEEN HIS BOTTOM HALF... BROKEN DREAMS THAT CAME WITH A PRICE BUT STILL I DIDN'T REGRET,
I ASTRO PROJECTED MYSELF TO HIS SUBCONSCIOUS EVEN AS HE SLEPT... 
ONLY TO FIND OUT I WAS ALL ALONE IN MY ON GOING QUEST,
YEARS OF BEING A ADVOCATE TO HIM  HE STILL DIDN'T THINK IT WAS MY BEST...
PROBLEM SOLVING SIMPLE MATTERS SO THE OTHER ONE COULD EVOLVE,
HOPING TO WATCH THE ONE I LOVE  BE HAPPY AND FINDING THE GREATEST LOVE OF THEM ALL...
BUT THAT LOVE WASN'T MINE IT WAS MEANT FOR  BYSTANDERS AND OTHER CHICKS ON THE SIDE,
WHILE I'M SITTING HERE WRITING THIS FUKIN'  EXCERPT FEELING LIKE I JUST LITERALLY DIED....


CHRIS:

THAT ONE "HER" IN THE WORLD DISPLAYING MULTIPLE FICTITIOUS TRUTHS THAT CONTINUED TO CURL LIKE THE WICKED WITCH OF THE WEST BOOTS. HER INNOCENCE COULDN'T EVEN BENEFIT FROM THE DOUBTS I HAD..FRESH APPLES WANTED MY REBOUND, BUT DISTRUST TURNED ALL DEM SHITS TO THE BAD. REALLY CAN'T PLACE ALL THE BLAME ON HER SHAME..MY OFFER WASN'T ENOUGH, SO I HAD TO CHARGE MY FLAWS TO CREDITS' GAME..MINUS THE PAIN, THE SHIT WAS WORTH A LESSON GAINED..TRUTH BE TOLD, BY WAY OF HER YESTERDAY..TODAY I'M A CHANGED MAN..
-C.E.F.-MADDE-